Redefining through yoga and commitment to self
Can you believe it has been over 6 months since my last post? My birthday was the last time I feel like I had enough mental energy to even string words together and create a cohesive piece of literature.
That is not like me to have that long of a dry spell, and so while I was visiting my SoulSister Danielle in sunny, healing Florida, I found myself moving into a space of getting back to basics, which included food, physical/emotional/spiritual well-being, and getting back to my writing.
If you have read my blog in the past, then you know I’m a little woo-woo, so this information won’t necessarily surprise you, but Naples, Florida has some energetic vortexes that dig deep into the cells and promote significant healing within the self. And since I’m a sensitive and energetically in tune, I knew that ending 2016 in the warm Gulf Coast waters with my closest soulmate in an energetically captivating location was perfect for excavating and relinquishing old patterns, leaving me with what back to basics needs my body and soul were craving.
So, after many soul searching hours on the beach and in the ocean, my soul knew that it was time to get back to yoga and incredibly clean eating – no sugar, no alcohol, nothing processed, and little to no meat, except for an occasional piece of fish.
It made sense – after being in Colorado now for a year and a half, it’s as if my body finally accepted our home being a mile above sea level, and that going back to basics was what my soul and body knew would get me grounded here now more than ever. Considering I haven’t had a regular diet or workout routine since I’ve lived here, the timing of the new year, the trip to Florida and my need to get back to self was more of a universal push to create the best possible energetic solution to the roller coaster I’ve been on since I moved.
The shift was immediate upon coming back to Colorado. My roommate and I attended a class at Kindness Yoga here in Denver on Monday night, and I immediately signed up for their 30 days for $30 special, which has been on my radar for MONTHS, but for some reason I kept pushing it off until now. And I’m grateful that I did because this time feels like it’s exactly what I needed to come back to self.
My first day of the 30 days was yesterday, and it has been a long time since I was consistently doing a yoga practice, so to say I have been a little apprehensive to dive in, full body and soul, is a bit of an understatement. I felt like, beyond the inconsistencies in my practice, I’ve also lost a lot of upper body strength, necessary for many of the poses.
I was feeling self-conscious and nervous, and self-doubt settled in. The committee of voices in my head nagged, “You aren’t as strong as you used to be”, “You aren’t as flexible as you used to be”, “You aren’t as young or as thin as you used to be”. Relentless, really.
However, I knew that if I didn’t choose myself today, I don’t know when I would.
I had to take the first step and do it with a practice that forces me to to find myself, and yoga has always been that for me. This time was no different.
And so, I rolled out my mat, spread my bare toes, pressed my hands together in prayer, and began a new kind of journey.
I decided to dedicate my day one practice to everything that comes to my life that is both seen and unseen, and even in the toughest moments when I struggled and wanted to give up, I reminded myself that I am ready for anything: whatever pose came next, whatever challenge, whatever emotion.
I took a deep breath, thought of my practice dedication, and moved through each pose with complete commitment to my physical and higher self.
By the end of class, I had already felt the shift in energy in my body, and knew that my getting back to basics was more than just getting healthy. It was about realignment with all of the things that make me happiest, many of which I have ignored or pushed aside since moving here.
And so, in this moment I’m dedicating myself to the next 30 days of self-rediscovery through yoga, writing and diet, and just like my dedication to day 1 and being ready for anything, I’m going to see where this journey takes me. I hope you come along for the ride.