Do you ever listen to a song and say to yourself, “This is TOTALLY my song!!!” I know you do. Just admit it now. Whether you are alone or in a room full of people reading this, you need to just throw caution into the wind and admit it.
We all do it.
Obviously I’m no different, or I would have ignored this topic to the point of passively dismissing it as a silly notion.
It is not silly. It is not a notion.
Tonight I had my headphones in, and I played my favorite station on my iTunes: One Republic. Okay, berate me if you must, but I know just how good their lyrics are. As I tapped on their icon, the first song that started was Feel Again, a song that emotes intense palpitations from the organ producing life. I’ve listened to this song about 100 times, yet this was the first time I actually heard (and I blame this on the headphones) the heartbeat in the very beginning of the song. It stopped me in my tracks. I closed my eyes. And I remembered.
I remembered a time when life felt new again. I remembered a time when I first felt love – true love – for not only another person, but for myself. I remembered a time when I was in control over my circumstances, and didn’t let anyone else penetrate my energy field…
The past 2 and 1/2 years have been nothing short of monumental (see above) – maybe even to the point of life-changing, cellularly-charged, never-going-back-to-how-it-used-to-be. And I’m a deep thinker and feeler… and I feel others emotions and I think what they are thinking (a topic for a later post when you’ve gotten to know me a little better.) I think now is not the time to divulge the parts that might make you question your commitment to My Version, My Life, and I know LOTS of you are reading (and liking it!!!).
Don’t worry, though. You will get those parts of me. I have every intention of opening up to my readers, and I thank you in advance for reading and acknowledging the strength and humility it takes to open up to the point at which I will reveal the Jaime that many of you don’t get to see through social media.
But for today, you will get my life in songs. Maybe not the Jaime you wanted, but the Jaime you are getting. And for what it’s worth, it means a lot for you to listen to each and every note of each song, knowing that each moment lead to the Jaime that writes to you tonight with deepest sincerity and honesty.
Without further ado, here is my soundtrack for the past 2 and 1/2 years of my life:
- Fun. Some Nights
- One Republic, Feel Again
- Jason Aldean, Fly Over States
- Calvin Harris, Feel So Close
- Jason Mraz, I Won’t Give Up
- Katy Perry, Wide Awake
- Bruno Mars, When I Was Your Man
- John Legend, All Of Me
- John Lennon, Imagine
Guess I don’t have a #10… But I’d say that about sums up my summer of 2012-summer 2014. I know many of you might be pondering the “who”, “what”, “when”, “where”, and such, but there is a time and a place for all of it. I promise that.
A good writer never fully leaves his or her reader in the dark, but rather reveals their story slowly but surely.
For now, just enjoy the songs that moved me to the depths of my soul, and made me know that the stories behind the music is deeper and richer than I ever could have imagined.
If that doesn’t keep you reading, what will?
This is my soundtrack of my version. My life.